Dear Wellspring Family & Friends,
Since returning from Midwinter in late January, I have been focused and frenzied working on our final Theology class assignment due this week. This paper has been ten times harder for me than preparing my sermons, which many of you already know, is quite a laborious process! I’ve been such a whiner about the whole thing and don’t feel good about myself for that. The result has been a discouraged mind, body and spirit as I’ve spent most of my free moments, isolated with laptops, books and articles scattered around me.
I had allocated this past Thursday afternoon to finish up my second paper so that I could go back to my first paper for the umpteenth time to re-read and re-write it. How masochistic am I? My day began with a house call in Ewa Beach, and then a visit to my elderly aunty in Kunia. The day was beginning well. I felt peace. I was looking forward to lunch with Amy and our time was wonderful! We talked non-stop, finding connection in life experiences. I felt belonging.
I decided to then stop and hang out at church to work on my paper since our halau was meeting that evening. Of course, I was dreading looking at my paper again, so I was pleasantly surprised that Pastor Rebecca was in the house and we could spend some time together! I felt comforted.
An hour into my paper, I heard the murmurs of laughter and decided to check it out. After all, it would be rude for me not to say hello and I deserved a break having written a whole paragraph in that hour. A “hello” ended up being a meaningful time of sharing and listening (mostly sharing) with Cathy and Margie from our Prayer & Comfort Team who met to pray for people and connect with each other. We prayed. I felt understood.
My evening ended with Colleen and I at halau, fine tuning our Easter dance, but was most renewing as we paused to be in each other’s company and talk. I felt valued.
Theology class has been a stretch for me to shift from “how does this apply to real life” to doctrine and history. My unhealthy weaknesses have resulted in self-imposed pressures from this class to derail me to lose focus on what matters: people and our relationships in life together. My empty relationship reservoir was filled on this day, but more importantly, “reset” my mind, body and spirit with the importance of people and relationships are as we journey together through the highs and the heartaches of life. We need each other to listen and to speak God’s words of encouragement, truth, and love so that we continue to find hope and genuine belonging in God’s love for us and for each other.
Let us think of ways to motivate one another to acts of love and good works. And let us not neglect our meeting together, as some people do, but encourage one another, especially now that the day of his return is drawing near.” Hebrews 10:24-25
God’s Light, Love & Blessing,